The Dark Nights

It’s those thoughts and feelings when your alone at night before you sleep that tends to be most intense. They creep on you silently. They start off with simple thoughts then lead to more intense thoughts. After a while you start to believe those lies that run through your mind. One thing after another you start to isolate yourself from your friends and family, leading you down a road that you can’t undo when you reach the end of the road. Leaving you to fuel those lies and feeling nothing but alone. You look for the slightest sight of hope, the end of the tunnel so you attempt to distract yourself with music, scrolling through social media, watch movies and shows hoping that it will silence those deep thoughts that run through your mind. You want to phone a friend but you also don’t want to bother anyone with your problems. People say that they’re always there for you but with past history you don’t believe them because people tend not to stay and leave when things get too dark and uncomfortable. So you keep everything bottled up inside, pushing it way down hoping it goes away on your own.