Curse of a Big Heart

The worst thing about having a big heart while dealing with depression and anxiety is that all the hate that you have goes to yourself. So you love other people hoping that someone would reciprocate what you give them. You start to become the person that you end up needing the most. You tend to put others before yourself. You end up giving and giving until there’s nothing else to give. You show love to other people because you know what it's like to feel like you’re not good enough for anyone. You set up a high standard for yourself and when you can’t reach that standard you get disappointed in yourself. You’re terrified that other people will see you like you see yourself. When you’re feeling down you pick yourself back up when someone needs you and pretend that nothing is wrong because you don’t want to worry them and be a debbie downer.